It rattled through her mind. She thought her ears would bleed. ... I am so sorry... gasped Sayuri. ... It’s just that word make me shiver ... I do...’t want to remember... “But you might need to. I saw it, Sayuri-chan. The shrine was burning. And your father...” Yoshiko swallowed. “He was dead. And then you were walking through a castle surrounded by retainers. I saw shadows moving, like tentacles.”Sayuri-chan trembled in my arm.“And then, you were running through these dark woods, chasing. I looked at her questioningly. "I wish Cindi could have known how wonderful it is to make love to you."I don't know if it was a look on my face or if she picked up my emotions, or if she just plain read my mind, but I heard her breath catch in her throat and her eyes opened wide. She looked deep into my eyes, and then looked at me with a stunned look on her face."But she did know, didn't she? You made love to Cindi, didn't you? Tell me about it." Busted! I thought she knew. When she wanted me. “So, first time for that then?”“For what, cum in the armpit or the rape fantasy?”“Well I meant the cum but both I guess.”“Yes and yes. Well…”Sam looked at her interestedly, waiting for her to continue.“I don’t make a habit of sharing details of what happens in private, but Angus sometimes fucks me while I’m asleep.”“He has mentioned that to me. He refers to it as ‘dickin’ her awake’” Sam said in a bad impression of Angus’ accent.“Riiiight. So I guess there’s that. It was kinda shocking the. A good actress makes something impossible look easy. I was ready for this.I didn't expect to actually answer a phone or type. I was given a desk. My boss wanted me to pretend like I was some new secretary on her first day. I sat at an old typewriter and copied silly memos for a few hours. Holy shit, I can't type. I wanted to laugh. Thank God, I was just an actress. I had no secretarial skills. I did things like order flowers and RSVP responses. It was exciting to pretend I was some innocent.