“I don’t know, Mark. It’s kind of sudden.” “I understand. I’m sorry…” I was going to say goodbye. No. I couldn’t do that. I had to s...ve the moment. “I know what you’re thinking,” I said with as much cheer as I could muster. “You do?” she said nervously. “Yes. You’re thinking, ‘Disneyland? It’s just so not “cool.”’” I thought I detected a muffled cough of a laugh. “You should know that my son – and he is an authority in this regard – has assured me that Disneyland is not only still ‘cool,’ but,. "She pulled her head away, looked at him with strong emotion and asked, "What am I to you? Are you just having a fling?"He was slightly taken aback, "Much more than a fling. I have worried about what we can be. I feel guilty about letting us go this far without saying what we are to each other." You do not tell me that you love me." I love you, Ashley, but that's part of the guilt. Sometimes I think I'm being selfish." Why selfish?" Maybe because I'm keeping you from getting on with your life.. It'll be worse next year when you come home. Some of'em will have gotten married, talking about the problems of married life, being pregnant, having kids. You'll have even less things in common then. I think it's called growing up!"I was trying to keep it light but I could tell by the look on her face that it was really bothering her. She had a very pained expression plus there was a bit more of a shine to her eyes than normal. She had come into my room while she was talking. Standing up I. "It's... with the military involved, there's a good chance your government's tied in with it... I'm sorry, but there's a good chance you'll have to start over, go somewhere else." Hey, maybe you'll be able to give up medicine and become a musician." Caerys nudged her with a hip, getting a slight smile in return."Wait here." Gavin muttered to them, as they drew up beside a souvenir stand laden with postcards and he headed over towards a pair of nearby sailors."Do you think he's just nervous.