Almost out of habit, my hand glided down between my legs in response to my wandering mind. The cold water took a little longer to trigger me than warm...water would, but it did get my nipples hard in no time. I pinched them in turn and kneaded the flesh of my boobs, while my other hand lazily stimulated my pussy. It didn’t take long for my juices to add to the lubrication of the water and for images of Elbe’s warm smile and supple body to flutter around in my head.Nothing too detailed yet, just. And for what it’s worth, I’ve never had sex without protection. Claire couldn’t take the pill, and before Claire — well, like I said –‘ He held me at arms’ length and gazed at me for what felt like an eternity, his hungry eyes devouring my near-naked body. ‘Sweetheart, it’s a crazy idea.’ ‘Going to dinner with you was a crazy idea,’ I whispered. ‘But I still did it.’ And with that same feeling of recklessness that had started all this, I leaned forward and kissed him. For a moment, I didn’t. Mann's offer. They were thrilled, which surprised me.By the end of the day, I had adjusted to it a bit, convincing myself thatit would be worth it for a good job. Once I had more money, I would buysome suits and step away from my shorts to a real professional look.I spent most of my weekend trying to adjust to my new look. I wore heelsaround my apartment and began to get where I didn't feel like I was goingto face plant every time I crossed a room. But I also couldn't see whywomen loved shoes. When I was sober I was refining my social skills with women, when I was wasted, I was making a fool of myself. By sophomore year my social skills were well refined and I was ready to finally break through. That never happened. When I would watch my friends seal the deal I would take mental notes. Some of the things they would say though...never in a million years would I have the confidence to emulate. So I remained stagnant because I didn't have a shred of game.By junior year I had lost a fair.