“Of course he’s bad. He only wants to use you, anyone can see. He doesn’t know you at all but nevertheless he’s after you. It’s because you�...�re beautiful, and not too big, and have this perfect skin and look new here and unsure about everything. He thinks you’re vulnerable. He’ll use white girls then he’ll marry a Muslim like he obviously is himself, and SHE must be a virgin that he can have exclusively and own. My father has told me a lot. Promise me you will never go to a party with him or. Once theNew Year was toasted in, I would have to accompany Theo to our room. Thegirls had brought small overnight bags with them except me. I was onlyallowed to bring my makeup case and a diaphanous pink babydoll nightie.When we got to our room, I checked my purse to get out the condoms. Theyweren't there and they weren't in my makeup bag. I knew that I had putsome in my purse but someone had removed them. "Arithia, you bitch!" Ithought. It was too late to do anything about that now and I. She started to rock in rhythm with me and her breathing was shaky. I had always wondered what she would taste like if I ever got to this. She tasted tangy with salt and musky. Anise came to mind. I continued to lap and word also had it that I should move to the very top to the little bud, which felt like her nipple on my tongue, and lick it up and down, side to side and kiss it. I did. Her breath quivered, she held the back of my head firmly and her rocking became more eager. I stayed with this. The best person to help an addict is another addict, it’s impossible to “cure.” and addict, you can only occupy that part of their life with something else. I suppose there was one woman that was able to “Cure.” me for a time.We’d meet up, sit in a circle and talk about sex as the coordinator got off on the huge power trip listening to people’s confessions. It was pointless. I don’t even feel like there is anything wrong with me in the first place. It didn’t feel like we were making any.