I kneel in front of her & I rub her knees &running it up to her thighs, I pull her towards me & I kiss her forehead, her eyes & then her lips she pres...es her lips & wouldn’t let me. Now Im more determined as ever to do what I have to do. She reluctantly parts her lips & lets me kiss her. I hold her head as I would hold my lover & start kissing her as if there was no tomorrow. I hold her tight & rub her back then make her lie on the bed, kiss her forehead, her eyes, her lips, her neck. I undo. I harbor no illusions.What I see before me, I become immediately.I am untainted by desire or hate.I am not hurtful, I cannot lie --I am small, but all-seeing.I spend my days gazing on a movie poster opposite me.The wall is cracked plaster. I know it's every freckle.Every crack, every defect, every flaw is part of me.Light and shadow, Faces through time interrupt me.Now I am a prism, refracting all possibilities.A man before me reaches for the woman he is.No need for liars of light -- lamps or. When she was at home, Bob was there to supply companionship. The problem showed up when she had to go TDY (temporary duty assignment) some place out of town. On those occasions, she became vulnerable to the charms of other men, and would end up in bed with them. It had happened early in their marriage whenever she was apart from Bob. She had gotten out of the Air Force at the end of her second hitch and they moved to California, where Bob had gotten a lucrative aerospace job. She joined the Air. Okay, three balls, one strike, and Longo on third. We needed the run to get a rally started.The pitcher looked like he was going to throw his curve or changeup, and threw a gentle curve that didn't. It hung about belt high and soared back out toward deep center field. The ball bounced on the upper railing and went over. Longoria scored and I followed him to get the high fives and fist bumps from the people in the dugout.We picked up another run in the second and two in the fifth. It was in the.