" I said into the mirror. I seen his reflection as he sat on my bed and picked up a romance novel. "What the hell is this, Rebecca?" He asked, laughin.... I turned around to see what he was talking about. "That's my romance novel. Don't make fun of me. Did you bring the movies?" I asked sitting on my bed, looking through his book bag. "Yes, I did." He said with his perfect smile. "Good! Please go make popcorn." I asked with a puppy dog face. His jaw dropped. "Why do I always have to make the. Its a mix of taboo, secrecy, desire , love and contentment that you can feel but not describe.Despite this things did reach a normalcy. Although we do have that bond we are not exclusive to each other and we are ok with that. There is no way we could be exclusive and keep it hidden, we know it's to easy to be transparent and as liberal as our parents are they would certainly never condone our actions but wouldn't banish us to hell either.They realize sex in youth is full of questions, wonder,. I wished that I had another inch but she wasn’t complaining. I held on long enough to see her face contort as her orgasm started. She reminded me so much of her mother. Then I came in her, kissed her, and held her in my arms until she finally spoke.She said, “If you can do that to me every day…and change a messy diaper occasionally…you would make me the happiest girl in the world.”I replied, “I’d love too.”I pulled the covers up and she fell asleep in my arms that night. She didn’t even hear. .. yes . i wasn't of course but I think every boy has done that'Mickey returned and lay down beside me and i rolled on my side to face him and give me a hand free. I told him Donny had to go home so there was just us twoI looked at him and said "You are so beautiful" Thank you I glad you think so" He went quiet for a minute'then " i know we are both boys but would you like to kiss me" I've never kissed another boy before" I haven't either but I want to now"And then our lips met laying side by.