I didn’t detail all that for you before this, because it seemed like it would just lengthen things. But now it becomes important, because it really ...ffected the way we lived through that time that wasn’t happy.We had talked about stuff, of course. You might remember that Shannon wanted for us to masturbate each other, and the term “lesbian” had come up. When we were both so happy to treat Brinn’s penis like an all day sucker, I think that relieved our fears that any inclination to have fun with. “I have to get myself off a lot,” she said softly. “I think about you a lot when I do it. Do you remember that one night when you came to my apartment?”I did. It wasn’t a night I liked to think about. I had had a panic attack and fled her apartment, making up some half-baked story about why I had to leave and barging in on her while she was taking a shower to tell her.“You probably don’t know that I had hoped you would join me in the shower. That you would soap up your hands and run them all. That’s for the future – right now, I hope those stories are true because it means that you might be a lesbian, as I think and pray that you are.You are showing me some variations on stances to adopt for receiving serve, and you position me carefully with my feet apart and braced at the ready. You are standing right behind me, and I am so conscious of your presence, with your sweet breath tickling my ear and neck, and the proximity of your warm feminine flesh. You place your hands on my hips. Lekin woh khaamosh hi thi. Mere haathon ne unke badan par chalna shuroo kiya.Mera ek haath unke pet par tha aur doosra unki gardan par. Tabhi maine apne haath se unki salavaar ke kamaraband ko dhila kar diya aur unki salavaar ko badan se alag kar diya. Unki kele jaisi chikni jangh dekhkar main paagal sa hone laga tha.Maine unhe choomna shuroo kar diya aur tabhi maine chachi ke pehli karaah suni, “Aaaaa ahhhh.” Woh apne haath se mere sir ko pechhe dhakelne lagi. Maine donon janghon ko haath.