Dresses and heels - can never seem to satsify my fantasy of transformation to a woman - what would really put me over would be to entertain horny men ...nd it might go something like the following wishful thoughti like meeting others on line who have the same passion i do for pantyhose - lots of cam cum sessions that were hot but lacking in reality until i met synenergy - although married, he lived fairly close and had a keen interest in gay pantyhose sex which i have been missing - problem was. That addiction was my attraction to my wife, Sue. That addition was damaging me but to try and break that addiction I was developing another which was much more damaging, an addiction to alcohol.I had seen and dealt with other peoples addictions before. I had heard the councillors dealing with addicts ask the question, “What is your drug of preference?” The theory was that if you can’t have the substance of your preference than you fall back onto something else. It seemed that I had now. " Perfect. Then Kendall, I'm sure you won't mind helping the team learn how to be gentlemen in the bedroom," Coach said condescendingly. I opened my mouth about to speak, but he looked at me and said "Unless you'd rather do summer school." I closed my lips. Looking around the room, I had a crush on several of the guys and had even fantasized about Coach. Yeah, I was a ball of nerves when I realized what Coach wanted from me, but I was also wildly excited. "I'll help, Coach." That's a good girl.. I considered my faith as moderately serious because I feared that I would not be able to have as much fun that I hoped in the future I would eventually experience. Within University I did go to church every Sunday, and bible study right after as well as on Wednesday and Thursday. I convinced myself that if I became closer with God that maybe I could be a door man or something because of my sexuality (heterosexuals get all the fun). So as I watched the pastor from the pews my mind sometimes.