You're the only one I've told that to. Though I thinkMum was probably thinking the same. Emma was the only one that seemed notto be worried." No, Pete..., she's been very worried!" Mandy replied."Mmm. Yes, I see that now. I think I misjudged her a bit. That was whyit's been so good here the last couple of days. I knew you, at least,understood how I might be feeling."(Did I? Mandy wondered. Oh yes. Orphaned.)"Anyway," Peter continued, "I hope I'll see some more of you back inLondon. We can chat on. Within minutes, she began to sink into her bed as well, losing her sense of what it felt like and her knowledge that it was really there. Finally, her sheets opened up beneath her and she fell into space, surrounded by stars and galaxies. “Planes that only my mind can reach and planes that I cannot comprehend… The bleakness from which creation originated…” she murmured as her bra and panties slowly slipped off her body and transformed into gas.“The limits of what I can understand, the edge of. Cute. Not beautiful, not sexy, but cute. Not, in fact, anything good enough that he would have felt it necessary to wake her and show her how beautiful or sexy. Or even cute. She shuffled through to the shower, turning the radio on louder than was normal, trying to drown out the thoughts bouncing around in her head as she cleaned herself. The activity reminded her how little there was to clean — Marcus hadn't actually done anything more than touch her lightly here and there, after all, though. But, as usual, he’s failed to find the woman of his dreams. In fact, so, far, only Mindy fits that bill and she’s married. Not happily, according to her, but committed to staying with Sam because of little Rachel, their daughter who just turned five. His head tells him to move on, to keep searching. His heart, not to mention his penis, tells him to pursue his obsession, pulled the other way by his moral compass and by his rabbi’s wise counsel not to act upon his sinful thoughts. Even if he did.