And now he was gone before that love even had been given a chance to grow. Mourning him would take the rest of her life.She silently talked to him, ke...t his image in her mind, his face impossibly dear, teasing her and making her laugh. She begged him to still be alive even though she knew that it was most likely hopeless. And she cried, quiet tears, her chest so full of pain she didn't know how she drew breath.She reached back down and started on the knots again. They were stubborn and her. We haven't even slept in the same bed since that night, despite me clearing the room out for it, so we could. I need you to promise me that you'll never do any-thing like that again. Don't scare me and keep me waiting." I promise. And I promise that I'm still that guy… I've just got a lot on my mind, and have had some trouble sl*eping. Sorry… I guess that I've been pretty out of it."The couple sat in silence for a few moments just looking at each other as if they realized that this was the. " He looked around the house. "I wish we could afford to live on my salary but right now we can't. Besides," and now he looked at me, "I feel safer knowing you are in the same building as me during the day. Unless, of course, you're fucking someone there." NO, God Ivan, never." I wanted to tell him I would never cheat on him at work but the words stuck in my throat. Until last night I would have thought I would never have cheated on him anywhere."There's more." He got up and began to pace, with. Joking aloud about how neglected I was, no one to hear but Rosco. And I guessed I'd had a few too many of these." The brunette lifted the glass.She stood and went to the cupboard. Finally Shana spoke, her voice sounding hollow in the still room."Suppose I could have one of those?"Shana, Karen knew, had experimented with booze at an early age. For all she knew her daughter could still drank. There was little point in turning her down now that she was so nearly legal."Yeah, why not," Karen said,.