That is so very depressing." That may be the worst insult I've ever had," Ree'al said thoughtfully. "On the other hand, thank you. I've grown fond of ...raveling with you too." We're just leaves tossed by the wind," Lormia said sadly."Gods! Now you've gone metaphorical." Shut up and help me up," she said holding out a hand to him.Once up she looked him in the eye. "Call me Mia," she said. "And may the Gods have pity on me." You look like a Mia," Ree'al said cautiously."Screw you."Her finger held. At this moment, all strains flew away. I felt light headed. My hands moved up, around his neck, into his hair. When our mouths opened and our tongues connected, a rush of adrenaline drove through my body. It was at this moment, when I knew what was going on. The shaky knees in the club, the stuttering, the smiles on my face every time he caught my eyes. I was in love. For the first time in my life I was really in love. At this point it happened. The plug slid in completely. Suddenly, so many. I glanced her up and down and she leaned for her fruit and caught sight of a really shapely small bum. God i love that look. She got her fruit and stood straight again, smiled at me and said thanks. I have to admit i went a little red, i was sure she caught me looking at her butt. I smiled and her eyes lingered on me slightly longer than they should have done. She put her selection in her trolley and walked off, i watched that bum go and shopped on. In the bread section i saw her again so. I can’t, she had moaned, I wish I could… Now I could see why. Oh my poor darling Fen…! (Here again I had to stop reading again for a while and take a dose of one of my customary cures in times of emotional turmoil. I drew my bedroom curtains, lay down on the bed and, with eyes closed, let the music of J S Bach imprint its sweetness and its magisterial order on my soul. By the time I had finished listening to his Concerto for Two Violins, the long-remembered pain of Fenella’s rejection of me.