Only there’s nothing happening. I see no useful activity going on with that pen in your hand, until finally I hear you blurting out that you’ve ma...e a decision. ‘Well, all right,’ you mutter. And you begin to write! In the meantime, I admire your hand strokes as you scribble down what it is that you have to say. Apparently, it’d seem that you may have always had something you wanted to express, but perhaps you were initially reluctant to share it. And now with your brand-new enthusiasm, surely. We've allus had a few families living on the outskirts of town." I nodded. Ted took a drink. "Am I borin' you?" Not at all." So, about two-three months ago, I heard there was a band camped inna Park. Now, I don' usually meddle with the Park, 'ceptin' when someone goes lost or there's fire danger." I nodded. But I took a day an' drove in. I headed on the Loop Road, headin' towards Warri Warri Creek, where there'd be water." Smart," I said. "More beer, anyone?" Small for me," the constable said.. Eaten. Indulged. Nobody has to know." I would know." You hold yourself to an impossible standard." If I truly want something, then I devise a way to get it. So if I never indulged, then I never truly…" Abbey kept her eyes on her untouched slice of chocolate decadence."You stay true to your heart." Will wiped his pink lips with his cloth napkin. "But, without a doubt, the cake has always been ready." I have made my decision. Monogamy suits me." It looks good on you. Too bad your position has. Carl pulled me close to him, kissed me a few times and started to talk. He told me he had discovered he was gay in high school. A couple of times he had tried women but long ago gave them up. I was surprised when he told me he knew I was gay the first time he met me. According to Carl, gay men can tell when a straight man has gay tendencies even when the man himself has no clue. I confessed to Carl that my being gay was big news to me but I had occasionally wondered what it would be like to.