Inside she told me were fantastic stories about God and his son. I pictured them as Pa and Sam. She remembered some of the stories and would tell them...to me as I worked and as my belly got bigger. One night Pa came late. He was drunk and beat me terribly that night. He said I had been with a boy down the road. I had never met the boy, just Pa and Sam. After I lost the twins and buried them up on the hill by the big tree. I imagined it was a church and I sang, ‘ I sing because I’m happy, I sing. Then why not love him if he loves me. I lied on his back with my chest pressing. He asked what happened. I said, “i was feeling little feverish.” Saying that i hugged him mildly. He raised his speed a lot. Ha ha. My nipples are already hard. I decided to lose my virginity today. I asked him to come to my home. Both he and me don’t have anyone. He is the one helping me financially. He is somewhat rich and i am just a normal kid. I just wanted to know whether he loves me or not.I prepared tea for. I could wank myself for relief but I really wanted more. I wanted to see cocks, maybe touch one, or play with one, or maybe..........I decided to go to a gay sauna about 20 minutes drive away, I looked at my sexy little panties clearly showing my hard cock through the transparent nylon. Should I take them off and wear a pair of mens briefs? If I wear the panties anyone in the changing room would instantly know I was a cross dressing sissy boy as soon as I dropped my shorts. Am I brave enough -. No she was jerked back into one. ‘Come in,’ she called groggily, rubbing at her eyes and sitting up. She was wearing another old camp t-shirt and her modest green panties. Reaching for her glasses on the nightstand, she put them on.When she saw it was her brother, she blinked in astonishment. ‘Tony—what are you doing here?’‘May I come sit with you for a while?’ he asked, voice low. When she nodded, he closed the door behind them softly and then came to sit beside her on her bed. ‘Don’t turn on.