He wanted to go the party, he did. His sister-in-law, Amanda, was terrific. It was her thirty-fifth birthday party, sort of a landmark, he thought. Bu... ... but, but, but ... Lana would be there and that made him hesitate."You still there?" Steve asked. He had a general idea of what was running through Kevin's head. Kevin and Lana had seemed all but perfect together, when suddenly it had all blown up. It was Kevin's fault, even he would admit it. Lana had been pretty close-mouthed about the. We sat on the couches and talked about our lives in general. It went on and on, and we ended up with the topic of him finding a girl. He explained to me that none of the girls that he dated after his wife’s demise were hot, and he couldn’t get a full erection when having sex. He doesn’t get pleasurable sex like he used to. I felt bad for him. Then my wife came home and unlocked the door and went to the bedroom. She came back to the living room wearing her suits because she just came straight. He felt an unusual chill through his body followed by and unexplicable sadness. The next morning after work he decided to go by her apartment as he forgot to ask for her number. When he got to where the entrance of her half address was, he couldn't find her doorway. All he saw was a wall, filled in with cement. Completely puzzled, he went back to the hotel bar he was at the night before and walked up to the bartender, asking if he knew anything about the girl in pearls who ordered the martini. Othneal takes care of me. He told me I could have sex with you and Amy, but we didn't get to do it. I didn't want to hurt you. Joe I am so sorry. I can kiss your hurt and help fix it. Do you want me to kiss your hurts?" Carmen, I want you to tell me where you put the little fan. Then we can talk about sex, Ok?" She struggled with countermanding orders and finally cracked."I put it in the little men's room, on the far side, by the big windows, because I could see the sky when I came out and it.