. her first feelings of love for another person. Ruthie blushed and fidgeted. She talked about her first kiss when she was 12, which happened just a c...uple months after she arrived in Salinas. It was with one of Gerardo's friends. At the time Ruthie was hanging out with her cousins, because her mother had not yet been able to change her work schedule to stand watch over her during the afternoons. Ruthie spent her time at her cousins' house and there were plenty of other friends coming over as. I feel him throbbing as he shoots yet again inside me.Bill leans forward and his lips touch my ear as he whispers, "I think I love you Wendy."My arms close around him and I hold him close as I whisper in return, "I think I love you too."As my senses returned my first thought was, "Oh God, what did I say? And better yet did I mean it? What about Rick, the man I love and am married to?"The only crystal clear thought in my mind was that I couldn't stand the thought of not being with Bill. It. Next she does her hair and heavy make up. By now it’s almost 10:30, so she gets into her car and drives to the warehouse. When she gets there she drives inside, then gets out and walks to Theo’s office.Inside she finds Theo and two thugs. Theo tells her he is done with her because she is causing too much trouble. She is nerous now as she does know what will happen, but she doesn’t have long to wait. Theo said get rid of her in the usual way. They grab her and drag her to the van. They tie her. Like I was filled up, and I really liked it. But of course I came right about then, so I didn't get to explore as much as I would have liked. Oh well next time. Maybe.Anal play wasn't a thing for me yet at that young age. Just once in a while, and then never very seriously - that initial uncomfortable feeling would turn me off every time. But a few days later I was reading and chilling and thought about masturbating, and the "fulfilled" feeling came to mind, so I decided to try again.This time.