”“She’s… fine. She’s fine,” I say, pulling her a bit closer. “This is actually her first flight, and she’s just… extra sensitive,�...� I pause and lower my voice to a whisper, “Physically, I mean. If I’m being delicate, I’d say that she’s just experiencing the engine more intensely than I expected.”The attendant looks at me, then at my love, then back at me with widened eyes, but only for a moment. Obviously flustered, she says “Oh. I see. I mean, I understand. Is there anything I can get. I am done being a mistake that no one wants. And I refuse to be a mistake that someone discovers one fine morning. I am not giving myself to anyone giving me less than 100% in return. Chad is not a bad guy. He moved away for his studies and now that he is back. I will not resent you for going back to him. The two of you have a history and I hope a very bright future ahead. What I was or who I am will be forgotten as time goes by. Someday you will look back and smile when you think about me.. I just want to enjoy my life.Last I wrote anything here it was day nine. Today is day two hundred and forty eight. So I guess I need to get this all up to date. There is in truth, little to tell. Nene and I are happy. Life has been good. There have been no real surprises. We see John, Susan, Bill and Jass at least once a month. Nene goes shopping with the girls on occasion and they seem to get along even with the huge age difference. She is just their little sister in that way from what I can. I woke up and asked if I could help them and they told me they were going to thetoilet and was just looking whether I was asleep or not. Seema was laughing andothers forced her to stop that and the next day both of them went back tocollege for my relief on that night, before we were going to bed Seema told methat my other cousins are really naughty and I should not believe them blindly. I asked her why she made such a statement but she refused to disclose after Icompelled her to the core she.