Unfortunately, I am plagued with a biological preponderance for self-doubt which he was challenging me to face head on. My mother hadn't bonded with m... during her pregnancy thus I was left challenged to form healthy, loving relationships as an adult. My brain had been wired differently in the womb than most people's, my subconscious mind operated under the assumption that I was inherently unlovable and intrinsically without value despite how much work I'd done on myself, no matter how many. “When we get home, that is going to be your job. I’m going to be busy cooking Glop.”Which is exactly how it worked out. I cooked the Italian meal. Megan made the salad while Linda sat in the living room relaxing. After dinner I showed Linda and Megan how to use the front door and the rear door cameras. The cameras had an AP for my smart phone. I hadn’t minded putting out the money for the cameras, since I was planning to use them in my other business. I could use them to keep an eye on my dead. Liz picked a romantic French restaurant for us on Friday night. The plan was that Liz would help Amanda get ready and then Liz would go over to her sister’s house for the night. That left Amanda and me for dinner and dessert at the house.I was dressed up and waited for Amanda to come down from her room. Her appearance was literally breathtaking. Her hair was made up and she had just a hint of makeup. She was wearing a thin blouse and a short skirt. The blouse was a thin material that hugged her. After a couple oftoes she sent me to get her another glass of wine and drank it as Ifinished the job. In truth, it was pretty easy. I was 12 and had greateyesight, and enjoyed spending the time with Mom and talking to her.This became a sort of Saturday night ritual. We started going to thedrugstore and picking out the color from time to time. I'd then do hertoes with whatever polish we had or had selected for the week while shedrank wine and we talked. It was no big deal to me.School had.