She was self confident without a hint of vanity. Utterly charming and very feminine, she was barely twenty one years old. Since I was married and lust...d after Paige more than my husband, it threw me for a loop and I masturbated nightly with her at the center of my fantasies. To complicate matters even further, our working relationship evolved into friendship. Occasionally, we went to the local pub after work, shopping or just hung out at her apartment. When I daydreamed about having sex with. That made four A s.The railroad car was about one third full on the trip back, but they didn’t see anyone they knew. The girls had sent long letters to dad along with their gifts and photos. They’d finally figured out what pleased the old man. He told her about news from the letters. That led to his memories of the girls from before. He tried to get her to tell him about her history, but he suspected that he was getting a report from the shallows.Marilyn had made 2 B s, an A (in teaching. Carla had their shorts off, two young hard cocks, one black and one white, oozing pre cum. Carla had never taken a black man, she had never taken anyone's virginity. She had not cheated on her husband either. Carla ended up on the cool kitchen floor spread eagle motioning for one of the boys to come to her. Pete did and lined up his cock then paused. "Well, um, I don't have a rubber." Pete said looking disappointed. "Don't worry about that just get in here." Carla said pulling the young man. I could no longer bear my lonely existence. The pain of seeing a happy family, on television, just added to my misery. I slowly removed the sleeping pills from the bottle, looking at each one, as if each signified another reason to end it all. Each pill told me how I was a failure. Each pill, twenty six, in all, represented a year, that I did not receive any love.It was difficult to remember ever receiving love. I guess the last time was the day my parents died in that horrible car.