I felt Ricky grab the back of my head as he started thrusting his hips into my mouth. I felt his dick harden even more and realized he was about to go... yet he still kept thrusting. I knew he would not pull it out, so I grabbed the base of his cock a bit tighter. When he started to cum, I let him put one spurt in my mouth, but then I pulled his dick out and made sure the rest shot all over my face. As the spurting stopped, I pressed the head of his dick against my face and used its end to smear. I spread for its piercing presence.I shivered.Eric and I make love all the time. Sometimes we even have sex when we do. Or should I say: we made love? I am sure he still does, but do I?There was a time, not long ago, when the mere touch of his hand on my cheek gave me goose bumps. His soft breath on my nipple made me wet my panties. Just a stolen kiss could scatter my thoughts like a kaleidoscope.Sometimes an awful thought invades my mind. It is evil, so evil that at first I adamantly refused. And getting less than lukewarm responses in return. The same unsolvable problems that plague us.You leave me aching like no one else in so many ways. My body aches from long tender loving nights. My soul aches knowing you are without me and unhappy. My only cure for this is to turn these aches into passions. I long for you and instead of falling into the deep abyss of reality, I plan for the next time we are together. Instead of sobbing and yearning for your hands on me, I use my own.Reality. At least for the moment he had stopped fondling her. The welcome break allowed her to regain control of her body and thoughts.Her thoughts cleared, but he had left her with a tumescent clitoris. Horribly, she was becoming used to him making her clit hard like this and relieving it by making her orgasm. He made her body want to cum, and like a haunting melody she remembered the phrases he had made her say to him repeatedly while they fucked: I'm your girlfriend and I love you. Your big cock is.