? She fingered the tight chain cutting into my elbows and marvelled almost to herself.?I wonder what it really feels like, to experience asphyxiation ...nd not being able to lift even a finger to save yourself.?She stood back and observed my still quivering body with wicked approval. ?It would have been even more exciting if I could have done it without the gag. Then I could have watched your mouth trying to scream and gasp for air at the same time.? She examined the bag, ?It only warns here. Susan saw that he was limping a bit and asked him what was wrong with his leg.It turned out his shoes were falling apart and his foot was blistered."Well, can't you get a new pair," she asked. He said he would but didn't have any way to get to a shoe store and he was trying to save more money to send home.That was when Susan told him about a chain of popular second-hand clothing stores. There was one about 20 minutes away. When he said he still had no way of getting there, Susan hit on the idea. "I've been thinking about this, and your feelings, but you haveto know you're the only one that I can do this with?" She paused."Why?" Think about it for a moment. Josie does have a boyfriend, and a fewgirlfriends." She laughed, lyrically, musically, oh hell, you get the idea. "But shecan't go to them, because they would talk to Josie when I wasn't withher. Then she would know that something was going on. And, what's more,it wouldn't be fair to her to have her reputation tarnished like that.". And you Selena, I feel this when I am near you. I sunk into the cavernous depths of depravity when she was killed and I know that I would not survive losing you. Is that not enough of a reason to believe that I love you, for being you? You are Elysia just as surely as you are Selena, it would be impossible for me to love one without the other. He sounds so earnest, as if he is genuinely trying to make me understand. So youre saying that you love me, not because you think Im your Elysia but.