Something more than the desire, more significant - Jane felt the need to fight. But what was she fighting?Confused she wandered away from the nameless...woman, she ignored her cries - starting once more in response to her unquenched desire for self-loving. Jane lay down and raised her hands to her wet cheeks. She looked at the tears on her fingers with sullen, yet blank eyes. Her final thought before exhaustion claimed her resonated through her slumbering soul. 'Something is wrong. Very. Still, he found out that it washarder for him to concentrate on work, and that every so often he wouldjust sink back in his chair and stare at the wall. When that happened,Olga or Maria would come in and give him a hug and a kiss on the cheek,and ask him if he was all right.There were days when he could work well, but days when he would feel sodizzy and lightheaded that nothing would get done. Maria had gotten intothe habit of putting a vase of fresh flowers on his desk in the morning,saying. M., when the phone rang, I was surprised to hear mom's voice on the other end. She was telling me that somewhere at the dancehall, she had lost her car keys, and would I be so kind as to run her my set of keys to her car. I asked if she needed them immediately or could it wait till daylight. She said later was fine, but she needed them before 8 a.m., I asked her room number and I'd may come at 8, she told me okay and she hung up. At first I thought of just setting the alarm and trying to wake. This incident happened to me when I was in my intermediate(18), with my maid. She is Lakshmi who used to work for us. She is 28 years old married lady. She is not attractive but good enough to have a relation with. Once when I was watching Television Lakshmi came there for her household work.She was cleaning the floor with some cloth, for doing so she happened to bend. Then something struck to me eyes. Nothing but round boobs of Lakshmi over her blouse, as her Saree was parted a bit due to her.