Why did he react so dramatically this time?I had to rethink my situation. I love Howard. I know I do. But I need some excitement in my life. I'm nearl... fifty and I need this. I need someone to help me feel alive and desirable. God knows, Howard is a wonderful lover. He fills me so completely and he is so thoughtful with me. I couldn't ask for a more considerate husband. But ... I need more.I've really made a mess of this. I've alerted him to my intention. I've stupidly caused him to doubt me.. All the way in the edge of the woods, like in the wilds, but only about a 2 minute run to the house if we got scared. It was 14th birthday, and I was with my 3 BFF’s, Tony, Stevie, and Mark. They were all 14, and were sipping on a bottle of Sloe Gin that we had a wino get for us. We were catching a buzz, and passing around a joint that Tony scored from his older brother, and roasting wieners over the fire. It was some bad ass weed, and with the alcohol and grass, we were feeling no pain, and. On your way home you buy a new pair of sheer stocking`s as a bit of harmless flirting will not hurt tonight.I arrive in the hotel after another day of endless meeting`s with another day of them tomorrow I do my paperwork for an hour or so and then fall asleep,meanwhile you shower and get dressed you want to look sexy but not tarty,hubby come`s in and does`nt even notice what your wearing,he grab`s a beer from the fridge and tell`s you about the match that is on tonight,you tell him your going. Actually she might have got a doubt of me because i always be in towel,so she used to give me a very naughty smile.But still nothing happened as i couldn’t dare as she might complain it to my mom and dad or so and also of my good boy image.Once we were talking in her home.A movie was coming in which it was about college guys.She suddenly asked whether i had a girl friend i said no not at all.She gave a very cute smile to it.I thought she must have asked casually.And suddenly one day,when i was.