I was mute.To make things even worse it soon became clear that I had becomepregnant following the rape. Coming from a deeply religious family andhavin... grown up hearing that abortion was wrong I too were indoctrinatedwith this belief. But at the same time I didn't want to carry a child inme. That felt so foreign to me that I wanted to puke. Ultimately Idecided to have the baby. The other guy in the picture, Hal, was mysolid rock. Even though I could no longer speak on my own he would readwhat I. And then they were also putting those HUGH BBC in their backsides. That’s just wrong. You are not suppose to make love there only in your love hole. But they were moaning and making really sloppy noises from those Hugh things going into their bodies. That is just wrong I think. One man and one woman for life. Or so I thought. I was so mad and hurt that he had been watching that filth as I thought of it at the time that I went to the gym and worked out for 3 hour’s. I was so tired when I was. ”She hesitated, looking down fearfully, “can we sleep with you?”I felt Cat and Sam both shift and sigh almost at the same time. I smiled as I felt their hands squeeze me and then let go as Cat lifted the covers, “come on you two.”With a look of relief they climbed into bed and snuggled up close to both Sam and Cat. It was a few minutes later that I heard two more come in. Sam gave a soft laugh as I groaned about the bed not being big enough and she lifted the covers for them. I woke an hour. " I'm going to sit down, how come you're pushing me to the berth?"I giggled. "Lounge, Stoney. Relax. Let's have that conversation again." What conversation?" The one about me getting a job and you working and stuff like that."He smiled. Maybe it was starting to sink in."How's your engineering cred, Stoney? I mean, if I graduated and stomped my foot and said 'long vacation', could you do a leave of absence? Or resign and get another job later?" It was fun watching his face as he parsed that.