"No one ever explained to me how a man should act with his wife. I curse the day I listened to my friends' stories. I beg your forgiveness. I am on my...knees." She found, afterward, only tenderness and thoughtfulness in me, for a while. The most rewarding way to break a woman is to constantly assure her of love and provide hope, all the while you grind it away. It is an art few can learn. Joclyn would be my masterwork.In our first year, I gave little opportunity for her to despair. I would. He noticed it and said nothing, realizing why is was there. They were soon in another embrace.This time he pulled her top off, fully exposing her. “Damn Jules, you are one blessed girl; your boobs are magnificent. From this afternoon on I have been pretty much blown away by this whole thing. I have been in some state of hardness ever since I knew it was you.”As he talked she had just been moaning and enjoying his touch. He seemed to know just how much to squeeze, just how to hold and caress to. "She'd caught her breath when I'd started speaking, but then I heard her say "hello" again, and a third time sounding irritated. Lee had always been quick on the uptake. I broke the connection before she did.I hadn't been able to think of any other way to handle it. Spook was able to block the tap, but I thought it likely she was being observed, too. It would be a dead giveaway if they saw her talking on the cell but the tap was blank, and I was afraid it might worry them enough to pick her up. She'd betrayed me in so many ways I couldn't begin to count them! But some of it was for my sake. She loved me, no doubt about that. It was all there in her eyes -- her worry, her concern for me, her hopes for our future, and the teeniest delighted gleam at the practical joke she'd played on me, sort of. And above all, her deepest, deepest affection. I could have drowned in that! I kissed her quickly, gently, twice, once on each eyelid."Oh, sweetheart!" she whispered. "Oh, dearest.