"This is something I have to do. Either I stand my ground and try to regain my life, or I'll spend the rest of my days running from it. How are you tw... and the baby holding up?"Julie answered for them. "We're doing fine, but this kid is going to have a strange life. Both her mother and father are women who used to be men, and her stepdad used to be a woman."Paul had been surprised at how relieved he had been when he had found out that neither Jim nor Julie held any ill feelings to him over what. There was still a little over an hour before Poptastic tookthe stage, so I didn't need to entertain them long before they'd have togo find their seats, and touring the bus seemed like a good option tokeep Katy distracted from the truth. Besides, I knew that Tracy wouldwant to see it, and I also had something else that I wanted to show heron board."Okay," he replied. "But have them back soon so they can find theirseats. I nodded to him, and handed Heather back to Tracy before grabbingmy guitar. My evening had just begun. I was ordered to put my clothes back on. I put my skirt and blouse back on and stepped off stage.Nathan said, "Come over here bitch," and led me back over to the side. When we were alone he said, "In this next one you are going to seduce two boys. All you have to do is let them do what they want. I want to see some smiling bitch. I want it to look like you love it. Just keep in mind that I know something that you hate a whole hell of a lot worse than this."I nodded. ‘I just – I just don’t feel like you love me. I know you do. But I don’t feel like it any more. It’s like Zachary’s using up my body, and – and there’s none left for you. And it’s ugly and fat, and, and – you don’t want me any more!’ Rachel burst into tears again. Donald’s eyes suddenly brightened. ‘So, that’s the problem,’ he deduced, moving his hand gently up to her neck and stroking her hair. ‘Rachel, I knew you needed some time to heal after the baby, and I didn’t want to hurt you. You know.