I try to do it everyday, even if its just a few thoughts, and even if it’s just to say thank you. * Dear Lord, Keep my loved ones in Your capable, ...aring hands. Help any of them who need You, even if they don’t ‘know’ You. I don’t know You that well, but I’m searching and seeking. Please lend me the ability to understand. I need help to learn about You and Your ways. Make me knowledgeable in Your word. There is much that I do not understand about You. Even so, I can see the efforts of Your. As we carried everything to "my room" she informed me that for at least the next four weeks, I was to dress and act like little Sara in everything I did while at home. At the end of that time, if she is satisfied with my progression I would get to have another birthday to either age 12 or 14. If I did anything manly, I would have a weeks extension to my little girl time."Now, change into a play dress and go play with your Barbie. You've seen you sisters play with dolls, so you should know. " they anwsered in unison."May I say something, Sir?" Xiao asked."Of course. this is your house." I responded. Imprinting that she might have to get back into her Dominant role. In this house at least."I have always been drawn between submissiveness and Dominance. My lesbian part is Dominant but my heterosexual part is submissive. But I have never been able to enjoy that submissive part because there was never a Dominant I dared to submit too. One that would accept me but allowed me to be. But I won't."I got upset with it, and involuntarily started to power up. Even Cynnoticed and started squirming in my arms. 'Darn, I'm letting her get tome.' I slowly shed my energy and calmed myself before I sat down againto ask Denise, "Denise, did Isabel already invite you to the wedding?" You mean your Mom's wedding? Yes, she did. So are you looking forward toit?"I smiled, "Yeah, it's not everyday you get to go to your Mom's wedding."I was glad that I had managed to change the subject. Now.