I guess it's one of my character flaws, but I was never unprepared. Spontaneity was for little things, like where to go for dinner. Even with all the ...urveballs life had thrown at me over the last year, I simply revised my 5 year plan and my 10 year plan. I had never completely thrown them out.Until that night I spent feeling alone. Crying until my eyes were bloodshot and I couldn't breathe. Curled up in a ball, wishing I had my arms wrapped around my children and feeling Kevin's hands gently. I still ached for his hot, hard cock to be inside of me so I contemplated fingering myself right there in the stall. Unfortunately, a few other ladies came into the restroom at that moment. I left the stall, straightened my hair the best I could, and exited the restroom.When I stepped back out into the hallway, people were starting to exit their offices to leave for lunch so I glanced behind me for Jamal. When I didn’t see him in the hallway, I made my way to the elevator and back up to my. I don’t know how long he left it going, but when it stopped I nearly passed out. I was hanging limp by my wrist, I could feel drool running down my chest and I could hardly breathe. At that point I guess he decided that maybe that was too strong, so the geek boys clacked away on the keyboard and before I could protest, he stuck another dart in the center. The pain that ripped through me was definitely less severe than the first time but holy shit it was not a pleasant experience. The sad and. Perfect. I walked upto the first class counter at Swissair and asked if they had any spaceavailable. Yes, I was told, there was one seat left in first class. Iasked what the one-way fare would be. It was a small fortune, and I hadto fish a wad of hundred dollar bills out of my purse to pay for it.The ticket agent gave Ashley's passport a long, hard look before issuingmy boarding pass.I knew that I was in for a gauntlet at security. A one-way ticket paidfor with cash set off alarm bells,.