I asked why so she said you are a great guy but why did you broke up with my friend. I got close to her and put my right hand on her side face through...her hair and said her that sometimes things dont work out between people. Suddenly, I got closer and planted a kiss on her lips. She was silent. So I kissed her again and tried to suck her lower lip. Eventually she opened her mouth and I started sucking her lips and she responded well. I was a good kisser I know. Then there was tongue, and we. She asked the women there, if they wanted to have a neighborhood Thanksgiving celebration. She left a flyer in the door of any house where no one answered.In total, five houses responded. Karen would provide the turkey and stuffing. All the others committed to bringing the other foods.At noon, on the fourth Thursday in November, her guests started arriving. Edith had been a big help to Karen, getting the dining room table set and providing a relish tray. Together they greeted their neighbors as. Something caught my eye, and made me wet just looking at it. It was a bright pink dildo about 8 inches long. I picked it up and made my way to my bed.I removed the quilt and sat down I continued with the vibrator and turned the power up. This drove me crazy. I began to suck on the dildo, then placed it at the entrance on my pussy. I teased myself as I put about 1 inch of it in then I took it back out and sucked on it. I liked the taste of my own pussy juice. I couldn't take it no more and. That's what abuse survivors learn, so please allow me to do what I need to do to forgive myself.I guess you could say that I want to use you without abusing you. I have learned something very important about myself from you. Something that cost me very dearly and something I don't want to ever pay the price of learning again. On top of that, I believe that what I can still learn from you could be very beneficial to my future and I don't want to lose that because of the mistakes I've made in.