He just smiled at me, and asked if I had been enjoying myself.Now this wasn't the first time I had somebody watch me masturbate, I get athrill from do...ng it in public but it was the first time that somebody whoI knew had seen. And it's not as if I was just masturbating, I had beenhaving a pretty kinky session. Feeling rather embarrassed I answered himyes. He then went on to say " Hope you don't mind that I watched, but Iwas out in the garden when I heard a splash in the pool and I wondered. We had a twin room. The steel rung beds looked like they’d been volunteered from a lunatic asylum and the circular patterned wallpaper, aside from being an LSD taker's worst nightmare, peeled from various cracks and crevices without hindrance.‘At least it’s clean,’ Mum offered, ignoring the plethora of dubious stains littering the threadbare carpet as she threw her suitcase onto the nearside bed.Larry had taken the double next door. Mum could easily have put her belongings in with him - but. Oh, come on! Release. Wait. Seriouslynow! Release. Wait. Done. Two sheets. Three plies. Front to back. Daub.Inspect. Drop. Stand. Pullup. Hitch. Smooth. Spread. Inspect. Flush.Put down. Wash. Dry. Mirror. Door.Fuck my life. Well, at least I wasn't yet having my period...I took a few minutes to organize my thoughts. Unlike most immature andreckless teenagers, I was disciplined in my thoughts, modest in mydesires, and sincere in my wishes. I didn't go off half-crazed lookingfor some flimsy. Scared in a way I have never been before. Not so much for me, or my personal safety, but for the country. What would happen now? It was the first time in my self-centered, over-indulgent life I ever truly felt American, what it means to be an American. Patriotism stirred in me, and I was ashamed I had ever taken my nation for granted. We sat in the various conference rooms, glued to the news and each other, trying to reconcile what we heard with what we saw. Several of us volunteered to go to.