." But I mind, won't you at least let me explain the last days, what was on my mind, what was in my soul? Why I seemed an autistic. It wasn't that I d...n't want a child it is I'm afraid, I have a son around your age and my childbirth labor was very long and complicated before his birth." She paused, thinking, I assume, trying to explain herself so she could get to me, to my obtuse mind closed to anything that was not my anguish and sorrow."Don't you see it's not I don't love you, it was a. No other apprentice had advanced to such a high degree and she found herself more and more relating to her as a Guide. Even if she didn’t have the title, yet; her actions and insight were already finely tuned.“Look closely, mother. I have never seen that big, black one. The one in the lead of the pack, he is new.”“Yes. Also, look closely at the other wolves. Forget the bear for the moment. See how healthy all the wolves are. This pack has had a very good winter. Wolves usually come out. I stand up and walk to the waters edge. The water is quite deep but crystal clear and the ground around it is sandy and dry. I look back at you and you watch me as I splash some of the cold water on my face. I walk back to you and look down at you. Your blouse is undone further than it should be and your cleavage is showing. Your eyes sparkle in the veiled sunlight and you know that I want you. I feel the stirrings within me and I look harder into your eyes. As I stand before you, you lean. So we took a day off and went out to a quiet place. Then he ask me what are you expecting from me. I said nothing mama. He said, ‘Don’t lie Maya and please tell me the truth’. At first I thought I dont want to say it but i told him the truth. Then he drive the car and straight went to a hotel. He booked a room for few hours. Inside of me is getting excited because I know something interesting is about to happen.We went to the room. He looked at me and came near me and kissed passionately on my.