Pretty amateurish poetry at that, but when I sent him some, he loved it. He met every need I had. I felt that I met his needs too. We had an unconditi...nal love. We could stand naked in front of each other and be unafraid of what the other would think. How many people can admit to receiving that kind of loving? How many of us can say we haven’t judged another person at some point? We never judged each other. Nothing else existed unless I wanted it to. My family, my own children and husband… they. I threw more wood onto the fire and then went to get more snow to melt for water. I found a water bottle in the gift shop to pour our melted water into, and then filled the coffeepot with packed snow to melt, putting it on a low flame. When I walked back to the fireplace I was astonished to find DB laying on his back on the beach towels, naked as the day he was born, playing with the little green Tyrannosaurus Rex on his stomach. Rex's tail worked hard in DB's bellybutton, cleaning it out as. Gertie kept the original, gave each pimp a copy to double-check. Then took the copies back, “I’ll keep them here in my safe. Nobody else’s business.”Pantone didn’t argue, Harold wouldn’t.Pantone had agreed to rent all 12 apartments in the Gondolier Apartment building. That Harold had bought four months ago. And had remodeled by the same Hispanic contractor, Hector Martinez, who had redone his Buena Vista building. And the next two he bought. Small buildings - eight, ten, twelve, two-bedroom. The images running through my head combined with the pleasure of last night all combine to leave me in the desperate position I am.My mind is wandering as I drive, wanting and needing to feel a release. I'm not even certain where I am as I pull my car off the road into the vacant lot, my thoughts consumed with the urge of release. Luckily it's still early and no other cars are around. I'm not even sure it would stop me at this point even if there were.As soon as I park I let my hand slide up.