I sat on the bed, staring at his note, trying to take it all in. Im not sure what I was feeling, shock, disbelief, anger, hurt, confusion all of those...things. I felt like the earth opened up and swallowed me up (sinkhole). I felt like I spent the next weeks and months in a fog. I couldnt have been more clueless about what had really been happening in my marriage. Jim moved into the apartment of his girlfriend one he had for almost a year. I saw them crossing the street one evening, as I was. "Who are you and what have you done with Ashley Fine?"We had engaged in banter before, but this was a genuinely friendly exchange. I was drawn to her.I had been doing that a lot lately: Sunny, Sandy, Harri, Sam. Was I just trying to score a friend other than Sunny, or was this a real connection?I had been doing a lot of that lately, too: questioning why I did things.I never used to do that before. What did it matter why as long as I got what I wanted? Now that wasn't enough.We walked to. I am 42 years old, I look after myself. I visit the gym and pool three times a week. The ass is elastic, the chest is 3 sizes.Please do not judge me harshly, because I am not a writer at all.I will just tell you a real case from my life.I work as an accountant for a trade organization. I won't paint it,because I don't know how. One day, I was sorting documents and moving them from folder to folder.since I didn't have enough space on the table,I moved the documents to the floor and started. ✧ ✧ ✧I asked my wife why she never blinked during foreplay.She said she didn’t have time.✧ ✧ ✧Did you hear about the guy who died of a Viagra overdose?They couldn’t close his casket.✧ ✧ ✧Say what you want about pedophiles... But at least they drive slow through the school zones. ✧ ✧ ✧What’s worse than waking up at a party and finding a penis drawn on your face?Finding out it was traced.✧ ✧ ✧What did Cinderella do when she got to the ball?She gagged.✧ ✧ ✧What’s the difference between a hippie.