It also gave me the freedom to spy on my wife if needs be.Our usual days routine was me in the office from 9 to 5 and Laura doing the house work, gett...ng the kids off to school and then she'd go out shopping and do the family errands until it was time for the kids to come home from school. Although over the past few months she was getting home later and later in the afternoon.That night my stomach was in knots. I was hurt and jealous, and angry too. When, after Laura had turned the light out. It struck me as being completely in line with the Golden Rule, which she had also taught me and I continued to respect it as the best way to happiness for all.Now I was beginning to understand those rape fantasies some women admit to. The ones where they are captured by pirates, preferably Moorish pirates, with great bulging pecs and long, long, long knives. A long time ago, I had come to understand the fascination of young girls with horses--preferably stallions. I think I understood it better. . We have to stop." What? No, sweetheart, you and I were meant to be together. I really need tomake love to you. Right now." Dan, that was great, and I REALLY wouldn't mind doing that with you. And Ieven thought that's what I really wanted. But, I realize now how terriblethis is. I mean, if you REALLY wanted me, that would be one thing. But thisis too artificial. It's not really you in there. I can't do this to you, orto Jackie. And I really do intend to wait for THAT until I'm marriedanyway."I. I let Brian Johnson scream out until the 21 gun salute got going in earnest.Shop cleaning day was on my mind and I would get to show off my new pride and joy with one of my closest friends.I hustled through breakfast and mom, Josh and I picked up Shelby at the Ray Ranch on the way to grandpa’s shop.Shelby and I got out of the car and mom rolled down her window to me.“Grandma will have a lunch for you two at noon. Call me if you get tired of cleaning in the afternoon and I’ll pick you both up..