You took me under your wing, protected me, and helped me grow to heights which I never knew existed. Then you and Luke took me to bed with you. That...was until now the best night of my life and if I had died, I would have been happy. Afterwards through was so awkward; at first, I thought you were just ignoring me like my parents did after they made love. Then I began to fear that you hated me for it didn’t seem that you wanted to be with me anymore and that hurt so bad.” By this point Marion. There were more people at the party than the ones I was with though. I didn’t put them down if I wasn’t with them.”I ran my hands through my hair. Two and two had just added up in my head. How could they afford to buy the drugs for a party that size? Prostitutes. They’d been paid for sharing the girls around.“Most of the girls were way higher than the boys, weren’t they?” I asked softly. Emma looked at me and she knew. I could see it in her eyes.“I guess,” Lana said and my heart broke all over. I was just surfing through the hundreds of cable stations when I came across a porn channel. I lingered there for a while, swirling my wine. I've never been too into masturbating, but I was so wound up that I found my free hand wandering down between my legs. I'd just gotten waxed the day before so it felt wonderfully smooth. Maybe it's just because I'm young (I'm 22), but I always get very wet very quickly, and even though the porn was cheesy – bad lighting, pulsing music, absurd groaning – I. “What? WHAT?” I ask Julia. How many girls did I arbitrarily cut because of their youth? She asks. I tell her, Just 6, only six.“Are you able to make room for five additional Ladies in Waiting? Do you believe Carlita will remain silent and not brag about her new status?” Julia teases me. Except, it isn’t a tease. It’s a manufactured problem. I made it! I’m going to start initialing things Mfg. I’m talented at creating crisis! Gidget and Helena are hitting it off real well and already are.