Yves ran off to get their drinks and Viv grabbed my arm painfully. "Whatthe hell is the matter with you? You are spoiling the day." Yeah well this is ...ard for me, I feel totally exposed, like everyone isstaring at me. I am not enjoying this at all."She hunched her shoulders sighing. "Babe you have to chill, there isnothing to be nervous about, nobody cares, guys have been checking youout all morning, so stop worrying, Yves thinks he has done something toupset you."Just then Yves returned with. .. I had gotten caught, but the thing was she seemed to be enjoying it. "Sorry, but I noticed you weren't wearing pantyhose any more. Did you snag them?" I asked trying to switch the subject."Uh-huh. I hope you don't mind. I know it's not professional, but I caught them on a screw in the bathroom and they tore all the way up." As if reading my mind, she pointed to a spot on her inner right thigh, right were the tat resides. I felt my pulse jump, and thought to myself. 'SLOW DOWN BIG BOY, SHE'S. It is the demon that screams that I am a second class woman, incapable of keeping and satisfying a man. I am an unworthy slut that is only fit for low life scum. I cringe at the thought, and try to bury it, but it will still not go away. I look at my life with you and see the love in your eyes as a friend, but I do not see the look of my soul mate. The one who adores me and makes me his woman in every manner of possession that is possible. I want to be that woman for you; I must be that woman. That slowed her. I didn’t say anything. There wasn’t much I could do until we reached an apartment so it was up to her to really decide how much, if anything, to do.She looked thoughtful watching cars as we passed them and a few passed us. “X, my hand has been called. I’m not ready to be exposed in public. Let’s just ride.”I smiled. After a bit, I said, “Let’s assume the house checks out. I think it will. Why don’t we talk about a list of things to do. We can close quickly though we need to get.