Butactually trying, and wanting to be seen and heard.He would still have to be humiliated as Sabrina insisted. There had to besome penance for what he...had done. But she found herself falling for himall over again. Falling for Jenny....Debs felt giddy."Snap out of it," she chastised herself.Thinking of humiliating her husband led her to thoughts of Kelly. She hadmoved his progress forward so quickly. What was the race? And why was sheso interested in playing this game when other women might have. Who is to say the drugs have not propelled him into this nightmare? Who is to say he might have gotten over Julian’s passing already, without them? Morning came slowly, ever so. I am exhausted. Holding onto, or trying to hold onto, the writhing ship that is my cousin, the tormented and wrecking sinking thing that is he. I get angry sometimes. I get angry these things have happened to him. And that they have happened to us too. I know it’s the nightmare, the real one, but he doesn’t. I know. I heard a buzzer go off anda very large middle-aged black woman opened the window. She casuallylooked up and did a double take."Well, well you must be Erin. I had a nice long talk with yourgirlfriend today." She had a big smile on her face, as she looked me upand down. "Hi pansy, I'm Shirley." she said reading the words on myshirt. "Yes you are definitely the sissy she described you as.Sometimes we get you little fairies in here looking for that superiorblack cock. Can't blame you. Misty told. As the night winds down, I’ve made my way over to his side of the table. I know that tonight is the night I have him in me. We talk and we are both a tiny bit buzzed whereas my husband is blitzed. “Lets dance” I tell my boy. He grabs my hand and we walk out to the dance floor. It’s a cumbia and he holds me close to him. His big hands above my ass. I can feel him feeling around the back of my garter. My nipples get really hard as I press up against his stomach. He’s so much bigger than me. I’m.