Mom came into my room and said, "Sandy, why don't you putyour serving clothes on here at home? Philip's out for the evening and Ican drive you ..." Sh... paused. "Well, to be perfectly honest, I really wantto see what you look like."I was afraid this might happen. 'Here goes', I thought. "Okay, I guess Icould if you promise not to laugh." Mom nodded agreement and ducked outof the room while I changed. When she came back and saw me she smiled andsaid, "You look very nice, Sandy." I thought her. ...loved" as tears start to drip off my face now.Becky puts that box down and draws me up into a deep hug "Hey its deadand you killed it!"I shake my head to her, as she rocks me in that hug "I did not kill it.But I am going to use it, what it is, what it can do and what it knows!"I whisper to her.She whispers back "Why? Did you not end it? It was your right too and itdeserved it!" That's not my way. This way it serves me and I get use out of it! Butlets eat....please?" I ask softly trying to. He called, sent letters, etc. until finally I decided to let him come over and give us his pitch. I had seen his picture on his card; he was attractive, but older, and I knew he was married from the phone. Todd was surprised that I agreed to a sales call, until I told him what I had in mind. We have nanny-cams in a couple places in the house (I’m a bit overprotective I’m told, but you can never be too safe). Anyway, I told Todd we’d meet in the living room, to get it all on camera, and I’d. ‭ ‬It was likely to get crowded in the van, ‭ ‬since first thing Monday morning‭; ‬I had moved my vest from the secure store room to the van.‭ ‬Once I figured out how to hide it, ‭ ‬I planned to move one of the shotguns to the van as well.‭ ‬I knew that I was a little paranoid, ‭ ‬but I had been taught for years that the Russians could not be trusted.‭ ‬Lately I had heard how vicious the Russian Mob could be.‭ ‬Even though I didn't think the visitors at Marge's were Mobsters, ‭ ‬they were still.