The whole thing was too intense. My brain was in overdrive, I didn't have time to feel anything. When was over, looking back it felt good, but in the ...oment I was too wound up." So you didn't enjoy it at all? That's awful." She paused for a second, looking intently at his face. "You did so well, I was so proud of you. I thought you must be having fun." I didn't feel anything. No that sounds wrong; I did feel a lot, but kind of, not feelings, not emotion, more technical, like a balancing act. "I can't wait..."Cassandra pulled herself up. She still shook with fear and trepidation.What am I going to do now? I can't let anyone else find out... She staggered into the bathroom to clean up.I'm in so much trouble now. Oh god.She turned on the shower, then thought twice about it and started filling the tub.I need to relax for a bit. Get my head straight. Bath will do me good.She added a bath bead and twirled her hand in the water, testing the temperature as it rose. The bubbles swirled. If you resisted or thought they were being stupid about it, you found yourself labeled a 'special ed' student. Sometimes you would be taken out of class, and moved to other classes where you could not 'hurt' others. It was stupid!" I had gotten up and was pacing."I see. Yes, I can see exactly where this would not inspire the best of experiences for you," Lord A.S. Said.We talked some more, and he refilled our cups while I talked. The more I talked, the angrier I got at the highhanded methods of. You were a good hearted person, and that was why when Daryl made you feel guilty about not talking to Shawn you quickly gave in and began seeing him."That wasn't the beginning of your real troubles though. That just caused a little problem that you needed to think through, a bump in the road so to speak, and then came Cricket. That's when the real trouble began. He slowly began to lead you down this road of depravity, and the further down the road you went, the harder it became for you to turn.