And she likes me. Am I really ready for this?" He asks more to himself than to me."The steps are the same, Holliday no matter who you take them with."...I hate being vague with Holliday, but Alys has given me no choice."But you was just saying that they are different people." he asks puzzled by my new idea."Yes. so imagine. Alys."His eyes go very still and he breathing changes to a shot gasps, his body sings with a tension I had not noticed before."I gota think." he mumbles to me and stumbles off. Turant uska reply aya hath kahi aur rahta hai na maine pucha kaha to uska reply nai aya kuch der tak. Fir usne phone kiya, us samay raat ke 2 baj rahe the phone karte hi usne pucha ki kya rahe ho maine mazak mazak me kah diya tumhari fantasy. Usne pucha sach? Maine ka ha aur pucha ki tumne kya pahna hai? To usne kaha wahi salwar kameez jisme tum meri bra dekh rahe the aaj college me. Maine pucha aur kuch nai pahna? Usne bola aur wahi bra jo tumne dekhi thi Maine pucha aur jo maine nahi. Really eventhough I didn't miss dressing (that much) when I was with her and felthappy, but I don't think the desires ever really left.Actually I know they never fully did, but in a way they kind of livedthrough her. (One of my therapist's theories that I believe is right,and I have had two in my life. Both of who have agreed on nothing, but Icould write a book on just that, and thank goodness I didn't do much ofthis because I got better advice and comfort from friends)!Simply I loved to look. It was now 3:07 and timing was critical. It had to be perfect because Mark intended to race his car over the tracks in the last seconds before the train reached the intersection. Too soon and the police car would be able to follow them, too late and that would be all she wrote. He was going to need nerves of steel.Jimmy continued to jump up and down beside him but his stupid chant was drowned out by the shrill warning whistle from the train. It was going to be close, very close but he expected.