From there he went on to give me all sorts of supportive reasons why I had to continue my work, regardless of my situation at home. I was somewhat dub...ous; but, on the other hand, my self-confidence was so low that I couldn't resist all the compliments and encouragement he was giving me. They were like nourishment to a struggling plant."Okay," I finally agreed, "I'll stay on temporarily." "Good," Jason smiled with relief. "Now for your next assignment, I want you to check out some alternative. The fact that they were not as strong as men was less important with the atlatl as a weapon, and they had Alice to use for an example. I insisted that if "she" could use the atlatl effectively, so could they. Again, I emphasized that they might be needed to help defend our cave from intruders, animal or human.Alice and Strong Arm made two more hunting expeditions to get as much elk as they could bring home. We needed to stock up on jerky, because I wanted to send Alice on some errands, and we. I woke with a start and immediately checked out my new friend, the clock. 2:30 a.m. I stumbled up, made sure the porch and entrance light were on, then went upstairs. Taking my clothes off, I climbed into bed and collapsed. Pornographic visions danced in my brain. I heard a noise and jerked up on my elbow. I was fully awake in an instant. Pretty shallow sleep, I guess. Footsteps coming up the stairway. I glanced at the alarm clock. 4:30 a.m. I lay back down, feigning sleep, but with a good. Ich mag nicht mehr. Ich sehe keine Besserung, ichsehe keine Zukunft. War ich bis zum Alter von 12 einer derbesten Schueler(innen) in meiner Klasse (6. Klasse Gymnasium),so fiel ich in der 7. mit Pauken und Trompeten durch, kamdaraufhin auf die Realschule in der ich ebenfalls versagte undbin nun in der Hauptschule 4er-Kandidat(in). Im Unterrichttraeume ich, zu Hause (im Heim) ebenfalls, sofern ich dafuer vonmeinen Schikanierern ueberhaupt Zeit bekomme. Und immer wiederkommt in mir die Angst.