I felt a tightness in my chest. That is the last thing I remember.I woke up in a hospital room. I was hooked up to a heart monitor. A rather attractiv... young nurse was smiling at me."Hello Mr. Adams. How do you feel?" I'm not sure. Where am I?" You are at Methodist Hospital. You came by ambulance about 2:00 this afternoon." What time is it now?" I asked."It's about 8:00 pm. You came to right after you got here but we gave you a shot that sedated you. I'm sure you're probably still a little. Soon my coffee table, TV stand, desk and desk chair, kitchen table and chairs were constructed. I would have normally felt uncomfortable with a stranger in my house, building my things, but maybe it was the sex fantasy that made me feel comfortable, even playful with him. That, and he was an officer of the law. “Wow, this all looks great. And it’s sturdy!” I couldn’t help but smile. Had I done any of this, I would have needed a lot of alcohol and it would have ended in tears. He had even set up. But Birgit was on nearly every page once I did start writing. I took out my keys and unlocked the cabinet where I kept my old, hand-written journal. I pulled out the loose leaf binder marked 78-79 and started reading.The first thing I noticed was that the very first entry, after a rambling introductory paragraph that simply made no sense to the nearly twenty-one year old me, was about Becky. Or rather, about my internal conflict over Jennifer and Becky. Had nothing changed in nearly five years?. Maine unse kaha mera lund use dhoondh legi. Woh mujhe hi dekh rahi thi.mai poore hawas mein aagaya.aur man mein attack keh ke unke lips so smooch kiya.woh bhi mere saath milgayi.phir maine thoda neeche aaya aur bhabhi ki apple size boobs dabaane laga.aur bhabhi ne kaha aaaaaaaur, aaaaaur 5mins tak choostha hi raha.phir kaha saali,randi kitno se chudwayi ho.woh kuch nahi kahi aur hasi.aaaahaaaah.phir main neeche aaya.unke poore badan ke pasina chaatha upar se neeche tak.woh mujhe dekhti rahi aur.