Where am I going?I am going to take my bra and girdle off as I did last night before thedoctor appointment. She said, no need to do that, these doctor... exceptyou to be wearing a bra. The doctor told you that you better startwearing a bra 24/7. I did not like that, the doctors seeing me in a bra.Had a hard time for me to see a bra on me let alone someone else. Cathyhugged me and said come on it will be ok, the doctors expecting you in abra. Oh, boy here it comes again, I am getting really. “I ya Freddy boy, where’s Wilma?”“In bed, sleeping, why don’t you see if you can wake her?”“It will be my pleasure Freddy boy.” With a big smile on his face Barney headed off to the bedroom to find Wilma.Fred turned back to the doorway and their stood Betty, a long brown fur coat wrapped around her body. “Hello Fred, aren’t you going to invite me in?”“Oh, sure Betty, please come in.”Betty walked past Fred with a big smile on her face saying, “I plan on doing a lot of coming today Fred.” Betty. I was meeting Jazz!It had been understood that when Jazz returned I would move out of her room into the tiny guest bedroom in the front of the house. But as I looked at the three women standing above me, I knew instantly this had all changed. The good will that I believed I had been accumulating since my surgeries was not large enough to pay off the feelings I had been causing since I emerged fully as Starr. My self-absorption and arrogance was now coming home to roost. The stern faces told me. " You're sorry? What are you sorry for? Because you're not getting any of it?"It was here that she began crying. Don't do that. Please don't. Not again."I'm sorry. I'm sorry you were hurt again. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry I'm such a bastard."She was still crying. Quietly, like everything else. I could hear more ticking of sleet against the window than I could hear Elizabeth cry in little sighs. I reached out to touch her shoulder."Don't!" She swung away from me,.