Who has time for that? If I have five minutes left to breathe after working each day, I use those five minutes to be a father. Not a superman, not eve... a hunk, but just someone’s daddy. So no matter how many women tell me how attractive I am to them, I still see myself as ordinary. Average. And then she came along. I kind of wish she would post at least one photo of herself, so I can judge for myself, but then I tell myself that it really doesn’t matter what she looks like. The attractive thing. We watched the first two videos and then Jack took one from the box over to the DVD player. As he was changing the videos, he asked if i had ever watched any gay porn. i was surprised. i couldn’t believe he would play like that right in front of Frank. i tried to be cool and said no. He said “You don’t mind do you? I mean, you don’t have anything against gay guys, do you?” It was kinda creepy. i said i didn’t mind. He went on “I’ve had a couple of guys suck my dick before and I think they are. This guy...whoever he was, he'd never been with a girl. He'd probablyhave been lucky to have held hands with a girl, let alone ever touchedone before. And I knew instinctively why that was, because it's easy tosee it in someone else when you've lived with it your whole life: Hefelt unworthy. Unlovable. Broken.I bit my lip, slowly managing to withdraw despite my body's protests.No, I couldn't do that to him. I wouldn't allow myself, there's no wayhe could understand, let alone accept even if I. " Please no, not my ass, please not first." > > "First,again, last when everI please cunt and you will take it all, want it blackwhore, well you arefixing to get it, you can help yourself by spreading them or we can makethis more difficult, answer NOW!" Please", I started to beg but barely got the word out when she flungmeface down back onto the bed and sat down hard on my back, once again thepaddled danced on my ass."Please", I begged, "okay, okay"."Sorry cunt no secondchances." At that the.