” That was my moment of truth. All kinds of thoughts were racing through my head as I picked up that little carton; could I make love to Jamal? ...ould I? What would it feel like having another man fuck me, and a black man at that! I’d heard all the usual stuff about the enormous size of black men’s cocks. Was it true? I’d been faithful to Alan for seven years and only two other guy before we met; surely one little fling wouldn’t hurt; after all, it was Alan who. That is why we changed phone numbers. His letters were forwarded by the post office that is how we got them. But otherwise he didnt know where I was. Hubby and I still hadnt had sex since the affair started. Neither of us could bring ourselves to do more than hug with clothes on. He told me he could see it all in his minds eye but wanted to see it for real. As I have already shared I had promised to do anything if he would take me back. He finally asked me if I really meant that I would do. Many peoplethought this of Rich; he just wasn't meant to be a boy and the'mistake' should be remedied as soon as possible.Julia also knew the significance of the way Rachel had sung her song.She saw the deep feelings her son and future daughter emitted in wavesof sound and emotion. With this in mind, she would get Rachel alone and soon. She had to convince her son, albeit very carefully, that he mustbecome Rachel if he was to not only survive in this world, but flourishas well. Her first big. . never worn heels before and I'mnot about to start now." Your dress requires a shoe with some kind of heel." No, it doesn't." I walk over to a floor display. "These flats workperfectly well." Why don't you try both on and we'll see what looks the best?"I want to argue with her but, somehow, I can't seem to muster up theenergy. It's been a long day and she's probably worn me down. Still,I'd given in on the dress and the lingerie, I wasn't going to cave onthe shoes."No. No heels. I'm not some.