And, I would love to accept your proposal and make a life with you. But, we both know that I am not ready to do that ... not yet. I do not wish for an...thing to happen to you because of this damnable power that seems to control my life. I ... I am sorry. It is just that when you touch me, I do not wish to control myself. My entire life has been that of me controlling my wants and desires. Ever since the death of my papa, I held back from those around me, remaining both untouched and unloved. I. I pulled the shirt over my head and started rubbing my breasts and cupping them for the camera. He took about four more pictures of that. Then I turned around and slowly removed my skirt an inch at a time and heard the camera steadily taking more pictures. My skirt hit the floor and I kicked it onto the couch my right foot and lost my balance a bit.I stumbled backward none to gracefully and accidentally bumped into Jay as he tried to catch me. He accidentally (?) Touched my breast in the. Nothing unusual about that either it was a nice cool evening the kind of witch He would be in the back yard in the hot tub.so I dropped my bag on the floor in the front room, stripped my clothes off. and headed to the back yard!I opened the back door and stepped out. and froze in my tracks. there He was in the Hot tub, but not alone, His 30 year old daughter was with him both of them nude She was siting on the side of the hot tub facing away from me he had his head between her legs licking. We had gotten married on winter break, after we had gotten ourselves into a bit of trouble. I gathered my books, and went out to his truck. Part way down the hall, he caught up to me, and took my books."I told you, I'd carry your books, you shouldn't be carrying them." Ryan, the doctor told you, it's fine. It's not going to hurt me, or the baby. Stop worrying about the little things."When I said we got in some trouble, I meant we snuck off and I got pregnant. Once I told Ryan, he went into.