But something was not right, and he could feel it. She seemed, forward. He had not anticipated her to make advances on him, require sex before they de...ided to conceive a c***d. Perhaps it was the way she was brought up, but it certainly was not how he knew to treat his wife. All these thoughts crashed through his head as he hauled his baggage out the door, Rima seemed to have packed a lot more than usual this time, causing him to struggle. He looked back into the house, watching her stand there. I could not stand before her all the time. I looked into the owners section. About a quarter of the owners were women. Many of the women were older but also good looking in their dresses and pantsuits. I would love to kneel before many of the female owners. There were males in the arena, but I did not noticed them. There was a male auctioneer, a couple of armed guards. and a couple of house slaves. They ordered us to walk around for a few minutes. Then they played a song and we all danced to. He said instead of some girl I’d rather you have me, then, he leaned in and gave me a kiss. At first I thought of pulling away but what with the alcohol and how I was feeling I responded. I could feel his tongue parting my lips as he held me close. It reminded me of how you part my lips down below with your tongue when we are in bed. I came over all funny and tingly and got a warm sensation down below and in my tummy. He continued to kiss me and hold me and I felt his hand move under the jacket. But that is not all. I have been searching for something. Something that was in bed next to me, but for a moment I thought had been lost to me. I was looking for the darkness between us. That darkness that has always been my salvation. For some reason Anna, I could not find it. And I am ashamed to say that instead of talking with you and working a way to bring it into our lives again, I escaped into other worlds and took an easy path with a difficult problem.’ I feel so sorry for him at this.