I take out a cigratte and start smoking and also talking to her.Shruti: Baki frnds ko call kar ke dekha ki wo kaha par hai?Me : Hamara cell car me hi ...ai.Shruti: Aab kya karenge?Me : Thodi der rukte hai, baarish rukne par chale jayenge.Shruti: But i m feeling very cold.She started shivering very badly. I went near her and touch her forehead, it was too hot, she had a high fever. She was shivering badly and there was not a blanket there. I cant understand what to do. Now I had seen her properly,. If that's what it takes to be deep into the 'big time world', I don't want to be in the 'big time world'. Maybe it will work for Chelly, Janell or Maryanne, but it's not what I want for me," Heather noted emotionally.The other girls were very contemplative as they listened to both of them discuss what had gone on, while Heather expressed her feelings, which pretty much mirrored all of theirs. They had all gone off at one point in time, and played with others in a studio situation, but these. My face wasn't quite passable but I figured that would work to my advantage tonight.As I rounded the corner into the living room, I stopped and leaned against the corner, cocking my ass off to the side. Ron looked up and froze in mid sip. His eyes were wide and his breathing stopped for a second. "Here's the deal," I said, trying not to let my voice waiver. "If you tell ANYBODY about this, I'll flat out deny it and tell everyone you're a liar. And then I'll probably have to kick your ass. Sitting next to her, she explained every picture, where it was takenand so on. The earliest ones didn't even look like Mary, but theevolution she went through was all there, and the pictures ended with afull head shot that was fairly recent. Looking up at her, I started tosob. Heaving and hugging her, I tore myself inside out with doubt,until she finally sat me upright."How about showing me what this girl you become looks like? And what'sher name?" Diane. But everything I have is..." I don't.