It used to be clear but now not so much. What are you planning to take this year?”“One of my courses is biology as a science elective. I have the ...ame teacher you had last year. She still has high praises for the report you wrote last year.”A car had driven in and parked behind Sam’s car.”Well, I think that’s my ride.“Mom, I’m going.”“All right. Be careful.”“Always.“See you Sam. Don’t work too hard you two! Have some fun!”“Good advice. Have a good day.”“You too.”With Beverly gone, Carla turned. I mean not here tonight but why are you here?"Johnny wasn't sure how to respond. "Well, uh as far as I can remember, all I see is a truck and snow. It's freezing outside and I'm cold. I can't remember why I'm in the snow but for some reason I stay there and I'm so cold. I'm freezing and I'm so numb. That's all I can remember."The brunette touched his face lightly. "Well it's hard for many of us to remember why we are here. A lot of us don't want to remember."Johnny touched her hand as it lay on. Who am I? It doesn't matter. I could be anyone. Joe Average, with an average job and an average family living in an average house in an average town. Who I am is less important than what happened.I should have seen it coming, and yet, because it was so incredibly unbelievable, there was no way I could have predicted it. Nearly eight months ago, I was taking my four-year-old daughter to her swimming lessons. The school has a covered heated pool, so the lessons go year-round. It works out. You can sleep in one of the hostels for the homeless. I wonder what they are like? Smelly, I should think. I think you will discover soon. I will want you to tell me all about it. I will, believe me, derive pleasure from your discomfort. Do you feel despair? Despair is important too. Only you can decide whether you feel hope or despair. I want you to feel despair. I want you to know that there is no chance of you ever regaining my respect. I will continue to tolerate your repulsive,.