I felt deeply ashamed at what I was feeling. My eyes misted over and two big teardrops ran down my cheeks. She put her arms round me and pulled me aga...nst her and my right hand accidentally ended up on her breast. I snatched it away again but she reached out and pulled it back to the soft flesh."N-no, this mustn't happen," I protested but her hand stayed on mine."Don't you want to feel me? I saw how you looked at them." B-but B-Bernie..." Bernie isn't here, and I won't tell her. Have you. " Good," I smiled again. It felt good to be able to smile once more and mean it. I just hoped that Calvin's plan wasn't going to be a pipe dream. I didn't know how any of the four of us could handle that kind of disappointment.Calvin was right. It was a painfully slow process to get the state attorney's department to act and look into our accusations. They sent out an independent investigator to talk to all the people who had given depositions about the sheriff's coercions. It didn't take long. I only remember the parts that broke through, when the pain was to sharp, to unexpected, like when I had to bend my back to get in the car, and later to get out again at the hospital. I do know that the girl kept saying sorry to me and in between promised the driver she'd 'look after' him after he dropped me off...The hospital I just don't want to remember. Not ever. Somehow I made it from the car to the doors, then it's sketchy. I know they wanted to know my name, to know what happened, the. Then one night, my brother, who slept on the same room as me, found the mag which I had hidden out of shame. And went on to blackmail me into sex. I've been blackmailed only a couple of times in my life but this was the only time I was trembling in anticipation.. I had seen my brother in the shower after we played soccer, with the whole team, and I knew his cock was much larger then mine, even though I am normally built.He was laying back on his bed, demanding me to pull back the sheets. As I.