I have to go twice a week for the next six months. My travel visa will expire in nine months.’ ‘You know if you would just marry me you could stay...in this country. You wouldn’t need to go to college’ ‘Buddy, we’ve talked about this and I think we have a good thing going. I love you and you love me. Your mom told me about your first wife going back to college and the problems that occurred. I promise you I would never do anything to hurt you. You know that. You have to learn to trust me more.. Voh bar bar chodne ko keh rahi thi, [fuck me, Larry fuck me, yeah Larry like that, fuck me] bai sharmi aur bai hayaae ki sabhi baatein mein ne sounien lekin ab voh buht payaar se, buht lovingly bol rahi thi. Hairaan toh mein zaroor tha lekin inkaar ki koi soorat nahi thi. Lagta tha keh mein ne apni limit se zayada sharab consume nahi thi kayounkeh is waqt mujhay koi hangover ya headache ki feeling bhi nahi ho rahi thi.Mein jub se apna alag intizaam kerke akaila rehnay laga tha, raat ko nanga. She had to know that she was ending the marriage, that I wouldn't turn a blind eye to what she'd done. I tried to think of what could have caused her to do it. We had, or at least I thought we'd had a good marriage. It had rocky spots as most marriages do, but I couldn't think of anything that would have caused Pauline to put such a drastic end to it. I finished my coffee, went back to get another cup and then I headed for the shower.As I passed the spare bedroom I heard noises and I put my ear. ." I gasp "wher.." my voice,her voice, "where am... I" I realize I'm alone, where is my body. Mybody, her mind, "where are you?!" ... silence without closure, I mustbe.. in.. here, I look at her body, and she must be some where in here.I feel tears on her face, I need her more than I've ever needed her, Ineed a shoulder to cry on, "she'll be back right?! You'll be backright?!" I look myself over and feel so soft in every way one can. Igrab blankets and cover myself, I pass out so emotionally.